a composition i wrote on the bus on my way to work... this has to be my most genuine composition up to date... :)

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tonight my heart beat the way it did the first time we met
myself gave in to you in ways i've never let
and every smile i gave is a smile i don't regret
coz i have fallen in love with the same man all over again

tonight my soul danced to a familiar hymn
my mind wandered to a familiar dream
and these things happened all of a sudden it seems
i have fallen in love with the same man all over again

they say the chances of loving someone twice is next to impossible
and loving with greater passion is nothing short of a miracle
but how come i am standing here now, this feeling getting stronger?
and why are these arms aching to hold you longer?

tonight i am humming the same old melody
in your arms i am dacing to the same old harmony
and somehow i feel a renewed chemistry
coz i'm falling in with the same man all over again

dulay, 2009 :)

come what may

i remembered when ate mae, my friend balot's sister, marched down the aisle. i marveled at how beautiful she was that special day, dressed all in white. it wasn't her gown or make-up that radiated her beauty. it was the smile on her face and the twinkle in her eyes that convinced me she had to be the most beautiful bride i've seen in all the weddings i've attended so far. i swear i got goosebumps as i watched her slowly making her way towards her man, looking at his eyes all throughout the walk. i glimpsed at the man she was looking at and i felt myself catch my breath. there he was, standing, his hands discreetly shaking as he watched his beloved walk down their aisle. yet he was smiling, nervously, but still smiling as if his silence shouted all the feelings his heart couldn't contain and for a moment, i felt that their world stopped and we were merely dusts in their wind.

after that day, i was convinced that weddings are my favorite occasion. i always tag along my mom whenever she gets invited to one and i make it a point to pay attention, specifically, to the march down the aisle. and every moment, i still get that unexplainable feeling looking at both lovers as they stare into each other's eyes, probably exchanging their silent i love yous and vows of forever. looking at them, i swore to myself that someday, i'll be that girl. i'll be that girl who's looking at somebody's eyes, silently telling him how much i'm looking forward to spending the rest of my life and my life after that, with him. i'll be that girl who'll wake up next to him and serve him his breakfast, his lunch, his dinner, even his midnight snack. i'll be that girl who'll wake up just to pat his back when he's coughing uncontrollably in the middle of the night. and i will be that girl he'd be holding hands with when we have nothing to do, just watching the world speed by during our older years.

people say that girls plan their own wedding as early as their pre-school years and i must admit i'm part of that statistic. from beach to garden to castle wedding, i've visualized all of those scenes as part of my own wedding. in the past, my wedding plans have been all bleat and changing, no permanent theme, no permanent entourage, no permanent groom. but now, as i'm maturing and turning into a woman, i'm realizing certain aspects in my life that i want to be permanent in my wedding and in my life. i know for a fact that i want my mom to walk me down the aisle. i'll invite my dad of course but i want my mom to be the one to bring me to my new life as she was the one who saw and still sees me through my everyday life. she's the one who sacrificed her life to ensure that i will reach the time that i'll be facing the man who'll take care of me and i will to him for the rest of my life. i know i would want my six favorite girls and meg to be part of my entourage. my college friends as well as my office colleagues will be there also. there will be hundreds of flowers, no specific kind, but they will all be pink. i'm still undecided on my theme. i've been wanting to do a fairytale-inspired wedding ever since i watched got 2 believe. i've also realized that come what may is the only song that will played during my walk down the aisle. i can already envision myself walking down that aisle, dressed in my dream wedding gown. as for the groom? i pretty much have a clear vision of how he looks like. thinking about him now makes smile that big foolish smile. :D

at 23, i think that i'm too young and unprepared to get married (yes, my potential groom, don't get nervous yet. hehe :p ). probably two to three years from now i can say the opposite thing. but for now, i'll content with watching other people actualize their dream wedding. and someday, come what may, it will be my turn to fulfill mine. :)

can you still keep a beauty secret?

let's take a break from all the mushy-mushy stuff and sandara appreciation vids i've been posting and go back to one of my favorite topics: beauty. :)

i'll be sharing the tools i used to create a casual day look like in the picture posted below (yup, that's me):


PRIMER:

for the base, i used Elianto's BB Cream in Warm Beige
(as seen in the photo to the right). this cream makes a great base for make-up and helps add an illusion of flawlessness and dewiness. having spf 45 is a plus factor as well... :)

How to use:
apply ample amount on index and middle fingers (both sides) then spread evenly all over face (pay extra attention to t-zone area as forehead and nose are more prone to sun exposure).


POWDER:
Picking the right shade for a powder is as tricky as finding the right underwear to use for a fitted top. a face can be lighter than a person's leg or arms. a tried and tested formula i do in determining the right shade for powders is testing it on my front palm (never test a sample on your face) and if it's at least a shade lighter then that's my face's match.

How to use:
apply with sponge all over face with outward stroke. make sure that all areas are covered and no visible marks are seen. the powder should disappear into the skin (this will only happen if your powder matches your skin tone). mine's deep 04 by elianto duowear powder. :)



CONCEALER:
there are two types of concealer in the market: cream and liquid. personally, i prefer the former from the latter since it's easier to blend and apply.elianto has the best line of cream concealer. a favorite of mine is deep. it easily hides my unwanted zits and dark undereye.

How to use:
apply on pinkie or long finger (depends on preference) then blot on the undereye area (don't rub as doing so may cause wrinkles). blend evenly.


EYESHADOW
in contrast to my earth tone color top, i chose a loud eye color in different shades of plum. it's interesting to note that black is not the only way to go if you want a smoky effect on the eyes. yes, even plum eyecolors can deliver a smoky effect if done correctly and sparingly. elianto color studio boasts of great plum shades that can be used as base and in contouring.

How to apply:
apply evenly the lighter shade on the upper lid. then, apply a darker shade on the outer lower lid followed by the darkest shade on the inner lower lid. blend to create a gradient look.


EYELINER:
skinfood crayon creme liner is a girl's best friend when it comes to easy application. true to its name, it's creamy and soft to apply unlike other liners that will hurt your lid. only set-back of this is that it's not smudge-proof. :( however, it's intense color more than makes up for it.

How to apply:
pull outer lid outwards to provide a smoother canvass. apply the liner (imitate drawing an arc) starting from the inner lid to the outer. smudge for a more intense look or flick the end for an oriental look.

MASCARA:
this make-up provides an illusion of longer and fuller lashes. the secret to pulling of a more convincing lash (and clump-free ones) is by using a lash curler first before applying the mascara.

How to use:
apply on curled lashes with eyes looking down. apply a second coat for a fuller look. cover girl's fantastic lash in dark brown is best with a plum shadow.

tip: to separate clumped lashes, comb lashes.




EYEBROW LINER:
since my eyebrows' been fucked up by myself during my tweener (not to be confused with twitter) years, i have to do some major damage control. for this, i depend on cover girl brow and eye makers in dark brown.

tip: don't use black shade of brow liner unless you want to look like shin-chan.

How to apply:
fill in gaps in eyebrow. comb with a brow brush or brow comb.


LIP BALM:
lip balm is a must have in every girl's kit. it not only provide moisture, it also gives a hint of tint.

How to apply:
apply generously on lips and pucker up!

tip: some lip balm can be used as gloss over a lipstick like the face shops fresh lip balm in orange.



LIPSTICK:
matte lipsticks look glamorous when worn in dark and loud shades. cream lipsticks work best in pastel and beige shades. shimmering lipsticks can work with either dark or pastel. for a day look, i opted to go with creamy with a bit of shimmer lipstick. l'oreal color riche creme lipstick in cinnamon provides the most beautiful "barely there" look with the slightest hint of pink.

How to apply:
apply directly to lower lip then close mouth to rub the upper with the lower lip (done so to share the color to the upper lip) or use the middle finger and apply to the upper and lower lip.


people say that beauty is only skin deep. while that saying applies to some, i believe that beautifying is a statement that you want to enhance what you already have and take care of yourself. so what if i love make-up? that doesn't translate me to bullying those who don't or acting as superior to others. i say those who only sees girls with made-up face as airheads are the ones who are shallow and superficial.

kay tagal (work related)

got inspired to write a song one crazy afternoon as i was waiting for my print ad layout to be approved... the wait was so excruciating that i was able to compose this piece... haha :p


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kay tagal

kay tagal ko nang naghihintay sayo

di mo man lang pinapansin ang email ko

ano bang dapat kong gawin?

pati text ko'y deadma parin


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at para bang ako'y mababaliw

sana ito na ang yong sabihin

punta ka na rito

dito ko sa HO

kay tagal


kay tagal ko nang nakatayo dito

inuugat na nga yata ang paa ko

alam kong busy ka ngayon

ngunit may deadline ang dyaryo


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at para bang ako'y mababaliw

sana ito na ang yong sambitin

ganda ng layout noh?

approved na sakin to

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at tuluyan na akong mababaliw

ang merchant ko saki'y naiinis

lapit na 5:30

ayokong mag-OT

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punta tayong fiesta (as spoken by dara during the intro)

another mv from 2ne1! this time it's for their collaboration with big bang entitled "lollipop"... this is such a cute video which compliments the upbeat and dancy tune of the song... :)

on fayerrrrr

my LSS for this week... AYLAVET!!!! fire by 2ne1 featuring dara, more popularly known as sandara park here in pinas... this is their music video from their first mini album... enjoy! :D

by the way, sandara's the one with the high ponytail... ;)

gratitude

you told me i was beautiful

when everything going around was ugly

you told me i was indestructible

when all the world's falling apart

you made me laugh to the point of being breathless

when all that was happening forced me not to

you took away all my worries

when my troubles were just reaching boiling point

you gave me your other hand

when mine was paralyzed from all the pain i've inflicted

you breathe life into my lifeline

when i was just about to lose mine...

right this moment

i'm scared...


what if one day you wake up
and realize you no longer love me the way you used to?


what if i'm no longer the person you want to see everyday,
the person you want to hold hands with,
the person you want to laugh with?


i don't want to fade...

i don't want to be just a memory...


can we just freeze this moment
and hold each other forever?