evolution of the bangs

my friends have always been telling me that my bangs would probably be my trademark... a few even made a joke as to how my bangs evolved... that the moment i was born, i already had bangs (haha)... but the real reason behind the hairstyle is not as shallow as some may think... let me brief you with a few notes from my history...

i didn't have bangs when i was still in grade school... as far as i can remember, i had short hair the majority of my stay there... come high school, i went with shoulder length hair... back then, i was not thought of as cute or pretty... i was just plain short and a bit chubby (yes, a bit lang noh... ;P )

------> try to spot me in this pic... hehe ;P


... i was also an underachiever... i did not aim for high grades and settled for mediocre instead... i lived by the principle, "just do everything to survive"... if i got an 80 for my math subjects, i'll be thankful... that was my mindset at that time... well that was until i got a wake-up call... i was not allowed to join my graduation due to a failing grade in physics... that moment, i felt what people are saying about "the world is crashing in on them"... i didn't know what to do... i was so afraid to face my mom in fear that i would see disappointment and hurt... i wanted for the earth to open and swallow me whole... i wanted to just disappear... for days i've been locking myself at home watching asian series while my friends were practicing for their graduation march... i felt pathetic... oddly though, i watched two series which made a big impact on me: love at the dolphin bay and love storm... love at the dolphin bay gave me hope that though people see you as a failure, you still have the power to prove them wrong by improving for your own sake... why see your moment of failure as a weakness when you can turn it into a motivation to be a success? love storm on the other hand introduced me to my idol, vivian hsu... initially, i liked her because of her character, jia le... i found that i can relate to her style and attitude... you see i've always wanted to wear cute dresses, colorful outfits and cute hairstyles back in my younger years but did not because i wasn't confident enough to think of myself as cute or pretty... but as i research vivian hsu's life, i learned that we had more common that i thought initially... like her, i also have a broken family... we both live with our mother and was raised in a community filled with girls... while she struggled to make it big in showbizness at a young age, i was fighting my own demons back in my early teens... her determination to transform from being soft porn star into a respectable actress became my encouragement to transform as well... i gradually accepted that i was not going to march and that acceptance made it easier for me change myself for the better...

college came and i surprised myself with how big improvement i made through the course of just a year... i started excelling in school that i was even part of the dean's list consistently (from first year to fourth year)... i was tasked with responsibilities (both to my class and my org) that i would never have been given when i was still in grade school and high school... also, i graduated cum laude with distinction (okay, my bragging stops right here... ;P )... more importantly, i gained confidence and learned to embrace my insecurities... so what if i'm fat? my being fat gave me these cute cheeks that my friends love to pinch... so what if i'm short? i can easily make my way out of a stampede, wearing those cute lil stilettos and heels... so what if i have huge forehead? i can always cover them with cute bangs! which leads me to why i had my bangs... =)

i styled my first ever bangs like that of vivian hsu's jia le in love storm



and like all other, my bangs evolved as well...



and evolved...



just like my bangs, i'm currently evolving... i'm learning new things as each day passes... i'm meeting more and more people as my life progresses... and for now, i'm loving how i look, how i live, what i have and who i have... :)



hope you do too... ;)